Everything Looks Brand New If You Change The Covering

Hello My Pretties.

How are you guys on this cool Sunday afternoon. I'm sorry that I am now updating but there were some things I had to deal with first. Well one of those things was the relationship with my best friend. I realise that at this point in our lives we are two completely different people who want other things in life. I had that lesson pointed out to me painfully. When you see someone online for hours and you tell them hello when suddenly they sign offline, THAT IS THE BIGGEST FREAKING SIGN THEY CAN GIVE YOU. At the moment I feel really hurt and betrayed but life has to go on whether I want it to or not.

Now that I have that out of my system I have some wonderful news to tell you. Remember I told you guys that I was working on something new well its finally taking shape. I Rhadika Freeman am writing another story to question is if I will make it a short story or and actual full length story. This time I promise not to leave you in suspense with the ending. I am terribly sorry if I offended anyone (cough Shakira cough) with how I ended stalker. Hopefully you will forgive me for that when I finish this one.

Now to see who really uses their head I will post some clues and whoever gets close to my idea will get an air hug from me. Can't you just feel the love right now. So the clues are as follows: Barbados Flag, Poseidon, Trident and Tragedy. Well I know my little brainiacs will get close enough for your hugs sooner or later.

Sleepily Signing Off

Rhadika

p.s. I heard this riddle in a story I read and took me a while to figure it out so I will help you work your brain(torture you) by giving it to you.

Throw me out a window you will have a grieving wife. But bring me in a door and you may save a life. What am I?

I'm On An Emotional Roller Coaster but I'm Afraid Of Heights

"Sometimes I laugh and sometimes I get angry. Sometimes I feel like breaking things and other times I feel like running away. I paint a smile on my face even when things seem hopeless so maybe that is why people often forget that... Sometimes I Cry." - Rhadika

Hi everyone its been more than a week since I updated and its because I just couldn't find the will to write. That's it. No excuses or apologies. The fact of the matter is I just couldn't find it in me to write. Since I have last updated I have been cycling through so many emotions that I feel dizzy. I have been angry too many times to count. I have cried more than I have cared to. I have felt indifferent towards many events that happened recently and the worse part of emotional roller coaster is the fact that I have been rarely happy at all. Sometimes a thought would pass through my mind that it would be better if I had never existed or that I should remove myself from the equation. However, too bad for those negative thoughts. I am not a coward. I would rather face my problems than take the cowards way out. One of my little rays of sunshine is the fact that one of my poems has reached over 100 views on the new website. Yeah!! Goooooooo Me! LOL. I realized that only now I am starting to practice what I preach.

Sometimes my mouth gets me in trouble but I have to pray so hard that I keep my mouth shut especially when my father is talking. I would like to say that I absolutely hate him but that would be a lie. I don't hate my father but I absolutely do not trust or respect him as a person any more. So I will share a snippet of why I can't respect him. Last Sunday we were going to church and everyone was dressed and ready to go. Then all of a sudden the rain started to fall. So at the moment there is only one umbrella in the house and unfortunately it is in my father's car. Now we asked my father to stay for about 2 minutes or until the rain held up so we wouldn't be soaked or any of my hair product would run into my eyes or my sisters make up would be ruined. You know the hazards of being female sometimes. This bastard proceeded to tell us that he was not waiting and that if we are not outside when he starts the car then he is leaving us. And so my father went to church with the only umbrella in the house. About 2 minutes later the rain stopped falling. All I could do was laugh at the situation because if I didn't I would have started cussing and ranting and raving. But I digress.

I have determined that no matter what life throws my way once I keep my eyes on God I will be able to live up to my name and I will be happy. Even when persons close to me seek to tear me down I will stand firm in the Lord. Well that is all I have to say for now guys. Once I cheer myself up I will write about two more posts to make up for lost time.

Rhadika

p.s. don't forget to check out my poems at www.poemish.com I am under the username RhadLove.