A month passes and the phone rings I pick it up hesitantly and its his voice on line I hear. I cringe but I also can't help but to breathe a sigh of relief. He tells me that he is a changed man and he no longer acts as weirdly as he did before. However, in the next breath he proceeds to ask me on a date even though he told me earlier that he wants to be friends. This time I am careful in how I let him down but my paranoia kicks back in. Eventually I relax and go back to sleeping soundly at night. Thanks to him I am now a changed person. A little paranoid and even more guarded but I like to think that I my character hasn't changed too much. He was a lesson learned a penance I had to pay for whatever wrong I did not know I had done. I needed to learn and grow and eventually become a better person than I was. For I know that any time I slip up I will remember the feeling of his eyes dissecting my person and the feel of being nothing more than prey. No matter what I will always remember him. Watching. Watching and waiting for me to provide any opportunity for him to triumph over me. After all prey is always wary in the presence of a predator.
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Sunday, 30 June 2013
Stalker
He watches. He watches and he waits. I see him everywhere I go and I am hyper aware of him. After all prey is always wary in the presence of a predator. Have you ever gotten the feeling that you are being watched? I constantly feel that way. I try to change my schedule and try to not fall into familiar routines but at the end of the day it is pointless. I change my number and he still calls me and it is really infuriating. I yell at him to leave me alone to live my life in peace and he says nothing but hangs up the phone. Maybe I shouldn't have done that because now I am really afraid that he will try to hurt me now. An entire days goes without him calling me. Two days. Three Days. Four. Paranoia leads to Insomnia which in turn leads to Hallucinations. I shower without turning my back to the door and install various security and monitoring devices. To tell the truth I am afraid. Afraid of waking up in the middle of the night and seeing someone over me. Afraid that I will be walking along quite contently and someone grabs me from the shadows.
A month passes and the phone rings I pick it up hesitantly and its his voice on line I hear. I cringe but I also can't help but to breathe a sigh of relief. He tells me that he is a changed man and he no longer acts as weirdly as he did before. However, in the next breath he proceeds to ask me on a date even though he told me earlier that he wants to be friends. This time I am careful in how I let him down but my paranoia kicks back in. Eventually I relax and go back to sleeping soundly at night. Thanks to him I am now a changed person. A little paranoid and even more guarded but I like to think that I my character hasn't changed too much. He was a lesson learned a penance I had to pay for whatever wrong I did not know I had done. I needed to learn and grow and eventually become a better person than I was. For I know that any time I slip up I will remember the feeling of his eyes dissecting my person and the feel of being nothing more than prey. No matter what I will always remember him. Watching. Watching and waiting for me to provide any opportunity for him to triumph over me. After all prey is always wary in the presence of a predator.
A month passes and the phone rings I pick it up hesitantly and its his voice on line I hear. I cringe but I also can't help but to breathe a sigh of relief. He tells me that he is a changed man and he no longer acts as weirdly as he did before. However, in the next breath he proceeds to ask me on a date even though he told me earlier that he wants to be friends. This time I am careful in how I let him down but my paranoia kicks back in. Eventually I relax and go back to sleeping soundly at night. Thanks to him I am now a changed person. A little paranoid and even more guarded but I like to think that I my character hasn't changed too much. He was a lesson learned a penance I had to pay for whatever wrong I did not know I had done. I needed to learn and grow and eventually become a better person than I was. For I know that any time I slip up I will remember the feeling of his eyes dissecting my person and the feel of being nothing more than prey. No matter what I will always remember him. Watching. Watching and waiting for me to provide any opportunity for him to triumph over me. After all prey is always wary in the presence of a predator.
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